If I’d lived my life by what others were thinkin’, the heart inside me would’ve died

I was just too stubborn to ever be governed by enforced insanity

Someone had to reach for the risin’ star, I guess it was up to me

"Up to Me" by Bob Dylan)

Thursday, November 12, 2009

We, too, are spoken into the world

Held always in Your hand---
the hand that holds being in the void.
Time trickles drop by drop.
I hear each drip and the slow measure of space falling in between another day.

Beauty, manifest at the edges surrounding each created thing.
the entire world held together is artwork too exquisite to tell.

We, too, are spoken into the world all at once, not appended,
but consummated and spoken in symphony.
To perceive anything at all means that we have already grasped the ensemble of all things.
So that this green frog might leap out and come to be.
A whole universe must appear just so this little frog may be!

New Psalm

My Lord, My God!
This love I have for you is immense. It fills me up.
I want to shout it from the highest mountain and plunge it into the deepest blue sea!
I want to wave it as a banner for all the world to see.
In the wee hours of the morning when your Spirit guides my thoughts---
I find you in my waking.

In love with you, every lover's face or hand I felt,
is so once more. Just a glance from You sends me reeling.
How I want to see you and know you and be with you forever!

I was broken and Had given up living---my life and dreams tossed to the side, every moment of life became a total chore. Hiding from th0se who loved behind a locked door.
When You came and knocked at first I turned astray.
How could I let myself be seen such a broken and sorry state?
Whatever I had earned through my wanton will I ascribed to my deserved fate.

Yet your rays of light were not entirely obscured though my window shades and shudders were pulled tight.
Day unto day I let the world slip away, submerged beyond the glory of Your day.

A single ray of light can magnify into a streaming flow, a tiny whispering word can echo majestic choir above and below.

Seeds of Your love mixed into weeds and trash took root in my rocky heart---
grasping, reaching, growing climbing to the height of my thought and filling my soul with knowing.

Then I found You were not so far away or hidden,
but answering each of my heart's silent prayers.
You answered me and sent a Shepherd to rescue my soul.
Amazing Grace filled my deepest yearning and prepared my soil for the Savior's dear cross.
The Redeemer's healing blood wetted the dry, thirsty rocks, seeping into my veins and capillaries, pulsing toward my broken heart.

It was then that I awoke to Your mighty love--
Love exceeding fleshly caress,
Love exceeding glistening eyes
and the beauty of a smile
Love surpassing earthly trial.

I love you now dear Lord as I have always loved you
as you have always loved me from out of the darkest hours of sin.
Drowning, you came into my life and set me free.

I love you Jesus---
as I love all of the creatures that share in Your life;
I love Your streams and high mountain pastures;
Love Your oceans and lush valleys;
I love all that lives in You---
winds and stars and fish!

When the enemy siezes me I reach out to You and You are there,
though I am held captive Your light is a steady candle to beckon me home.
In the dawn of a new day
I am healed and life seems worth living once again.
You are there in all of these transformations. ("I will be with you always---even until the end of time." "What has been is now.")